Day 196 of 365
196 of my 365 days project (write a ten-word fantasy story) and Day 15 of #creativesprint (create something by another sprinter's work): LOOK! THERE IS A LEMONCAKE-TREE ON MY FUTURE GRAVE! - @strawb3rrywitch (on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/strawb3rrywitch/) started this month painting beautiful bottle caps and I hoped for a prompt like this to try it myself. Thank you very much, Sarah, for the inspiration! 💖🖌
Day 195 of 365
195 of my 365 days project (create a monster that has never existed before) and Day 14 of #creativesprint (make something out of a disposable cup). A quick one for today (I was sitting in the train the whole day): this is a little rebellion-monster to go: if someone says you have to do something THAT WAY, it whispers in your ear: DO IT THE OTHER WAY!
Day 194 of 365
194 of my 365 days project (make something that is supposed to be walked on) and Day 13 of #creativesprint (find a unique way to say thank you to someone). What the lyrics say.
Day 193 of 365
193 of my 365 days project (built a puppet and make a performance) and Day 12 of #creativesprint (make a city skyline): "Meeeeeemoryyyyy! All alone in the mooooooonliiiiight. I can dream of the old days - life was beautiful then..." [you can find the video in Instagram]
Day 192 of 365
192 of my 365 days project (make a family crest for your own family) and Day 11 of #creativesprint (turn something mundane into something exciting): my grandpa was a professional electrician - and all my folks think that this talent runs in the family...but we all had to learn the hard way, that a little bit more than talent is required when it comes to fixing electrical things (no worries: nothing really bad happened so far).
Day 191 of 365
191 of my 365 days project (use sugar as your medium today) and Day 10 of #creativesprint (select a picture and extend the image beyond its current frame): this is the memorial card for my dad's best friend combined with brown sugar and sugar sprinkles. On the front side the card says: "We can't direct the wind, but we can adjust the sails."
Day 190 of 365
190 of my 365 days project (work with [news] paper to make the biggest thing you can) and Day 9 of #creativesprint (combine two things that are usually considered opposites): I sorted out and cut some old paperwork - which also marks the end of a stage of my life. I turned the pieces of paper into scissors - at least in "Rock, Paper, Scissors" they don't go together...
Day 189 of 365
189 of my 365 days project (write a limerick about yourself) and Day 8 of #creativesprint (use a collection of your own to create something): I "collect" stories of grief and currently, I am telling them in my project '365 Days: in the Mourning'.
Day 188 of 365
188 of my 365 days project (make something with your lunch before you eat it) and Day 7 of #creativesprint (find out something that happened today in history and make something inspired by it): The painter Caspar David Friedrich died on this day in 1840. So I remade his "The Sea of Ice". And Mum, if you see this: No, of course I don't eat sweets for lunch! 😱 (I ate them for dinner... 😬)
Day 187 of 365
187 of my 365days project (use a paper bag) and Day 6 of #creativesprint (incorporate pattern into what you make today): There is a pattern here!
Day 186 of 365
186 of 365 (make something quiet) and Day 5 of #creativesprint (make something using money): quiet death.
Day 185 of 365
185 of 365 (work with only yellow materials today) and Day 4 of #creativesprint (create a face with only the materials you find in your purse): Sad Face. Including my hospice volunteer equipment: name tag, lighter, USB devices and something to eat in a lunchbox. 🤗
Day 184 of 365
184 of 365 (the skyline of my hometown and other cities I lived in) and Day 3 of #creativesprint (something inspired by a song that makes me feel good (bittersweet feelings while listening to Adele's "Hometown Glory"). It's superweird: I am only homesick when I am on my way home. 🤔
Day 183 of 365
183 of 365 and Day 2 of #creativesprint: Make a hat and wear it (the prompt for my yearlong project "365 Days: In the Mourning" about grief and loss) combined with words I can spell using only the letters in my name (prompt from Day 2). I made a hat with a veil and stiched the words "IN RAGE" in it (anagram from my name: Regina). My grandpa loved to sing and when my grandparents died, I stopped - somehow outraged about their death - the singing in public (e.g. in church or at parties) for a few years. And I wish I would have had this hat then, to give an explanation why I couldn't sing.
Day 182 of 365
#Creativesprint starts today (yay 🎉) and I'll combine my 365days project with the daily prompts in May (at least I'll try). The first one was easy: Day 1 = Make something that fits in the palm of your hand and Day 182 of 365 = Work with your hands...literally. So I did a little palm reading: The story of my life first-hand (haha).
Day 181 of 365
Use skeletons as your inspiration today. Ha! That was an easy one! Lets talk about the skeletons in my closet when it comes to grief and death: I think that guilt and grieving are often intertwined. And there are a lot of guilt-skeletons in my closet. One is, that I promised my great aunt that I would wash her car (I didn't really fancy doing that) and she died without her car being cleaned. - This is such a small thing after all these (fifteen) years, but see? The skeleton still rattles - or maybe it's my great aunt from above laughing at me?
Day 180 of 365
Make something unseasonal. 17 years ago they found my grandfather's dead body (we reported him missing four month before that). My grandpa was a big fan of carnival - and he handed his heart for everything "carnivalesque" down to me. (only 305 days until Carnival 2019!!!)
Day 179 of 365
Use seeds to make something. "Oh no! He's dead!" - apple seeds with pen on paper. 🍎
Day 178 of 365
Be inspired by the world of birds. I notice a certain affinity for drawing crows lately...
Day 177 of 365
Make a robot out of everyday objects. This is a remembrance robot (without cookies in the cookie box - WHY??? 😨😲)
Day 176 of 365
Make somewhere indoors seem like it's outdoors. I wish at the end of my life, this would be the last thing that I see - sitting in my favorite rocking chair. 🌤
Day 175 of 365
Miniaturize! This is a mini coffin for a mini spider found dead in my cupboard.
Day 174 of 365
Use only kitchen tools today. The Grim Reaper.
Day 173 of 365
Create a new traffic sign. This is for one way streets and for everything else in life and for life itself.
Day 172 of 365
Make a book out of something other than paper. I got this in a Kinder egg and it's a magic board and it's the last page of every book.
Day 171 of 365
Work with black and white. Yin and Yang: no life without death, no death without life...
Day 170 of 365
Make something unintended out of existing instructions. Um...Yes... Sorry for the (intended) absurdity.
Day 169 of 365
Create a personal shelter. A few years ago someone asked me: "where can you re-energize?" And I said: "On this particular spot on my red sofa between the right and the middle seat (when you stand in front of it)!" And it is my personal shelter from distress and source of energy and good vibes until today.
Day 168 of 365
Write a ten-word horror or ghost story.
Day 167 of 365
Work with pencils. "Over my dead bird's body."
Day 166 of 365
Make a piece of armor for everyone or everything that needs protection. This is a quick draft for headphones that not only keep noices out, but might also keep unwanted disturbances away.
Day 165 of 365
Transform a piece of furniture into something other than that it's meant for. I started this a few years ago: this is the door from my grandmother's sewing room (she was a dressmaker) - when my grandparents died I asked for that door. First I wanted to transform it into a wardrobe, but it quickly became an art gallery in my living room (with changing exhibitions ;-).
Day 164 of 365
Use the wind!
Day 163 of 365
Work with only the items you find in your refrigerator. This is the world's best brownie recipe - carved in the butter you need for it. I got this recipe from a friend... We always made brownies in times of despair (during exam preparations) - most of the time late at night.
Day 162 of 365
Create a trap. When it is 3 am in the mo(u)rning/ at night and you can't sleep but you are too tired to get out of your bed: The bed suddenly becomes a trap in which you are caught between concerns, doubts and sad thoughts and weariness...
Day 161 of 365
Make something with an old calendar. This is a calendar from 2011 (the artist is Hermann Hesse) - I got it from my aunt who died of cancer not long after that. Last weekend I found it while sorting out books and documents.
Day 160 of 365
Make a kit for an activity that normally would not need one. Attending a Funeral-Kit!
Day 159 of 365
Use makeup. Cemetery stroll! Everytime I take a walk in a cemetery (it doesn't matter in which cemetery), I feel a strange attachement to that place and to the people burried there...
And another thought: will it be weird to use the makeup again with which I painted a grave? We'll see!
Day 158 of 365
Work with homonyms today. I work with this homonym all year!
Day 157 of 365
Make something that is strong enough to support your own weight. I'm in a hotel and almost broke this thing and please pay close attention to the stylish pink socks...Living on the edge. 🤗😌
Two night owls on a magazine basket (?). In mythology, an owl is said to be a harbinger of death...
Day 156 of 365
Work with toilet paper tubes. I am so sorry! Today's prompt is really bad in every possible way (I wish today's prompt would have been "Make two bad things in one") - so, first it is a really bad joke when talking about dying. 🙈😂😱 And it is also a really unhelpful thing to say to a grieving person (or any other person). And bonus: it is also really not good, when you run out of toilet paper... On weekends...expecting guests... (another story) 😵😁
Day 155 of 365
Make something inspired by fingerprints. When one feels lost and alone between the lines and going around in circles, sometimes it's good to find someone to tell you where you are and from there you can start again, trying to find the way...
Day 154 of 365
Create a board game. This game is called "We're not dead yet" and it's really simple: sometimes you're at a point in your life where it is necessary to have some tea or coffee (or an Happy Hour! 🍸) with friends just to celebrate that you did survive so far... (and sometimes it is also good to remember to write your advance directive 😉).
Day 153 of 365
Make something light seem heavy. Ehem...yes.
Day 152 of 365
Create a Rube Goldberg machine. The title song of this machine is "Paint it Black" - the beat of the song is the rhythm in which the red door is painted black (of course).
Day 151 of 365
Make something with crayons. What would you pack in a suitcase for your final journey? I'm not sure...maybe I would prefer my handbag and everything that's in it to a suitcase?! (I am on vacation and I put only the coloring pencils in my current suitcase)
Day 150 of 365
Make something on or with your nose. When you are a bereaved family member, it is like having a giant pimple on your nose: some people stop meeting you because they are afraid it is contagious, some people are staring at you without knowing what to say, and only the brave ones and empathatic enough ask: "How are you holding up with this giant pimple on your nose? How can I help?"
Day 149 of 365
Make something with all utensils in your household. I spent the day on the train so the only utensils I had on hand were my hands (and my new reading matter - very subtly presented in this work 😉). Nevertheless, if you don't have anything else, you can still spread some love, can't you? Usually I try to avoid talking to other people on the train, but today there were nice people on the train and to sum it up: the saying "everyone has their own story" is very true.
Day 148 of 365
Make something purple. This is inspired by Prince's "Purple Rain", just because it is the first thing that came to my mind and someone called it a "slow-burn, red-hot emo joy".
Day 147 of 365
Make something inspired by your favorite movie. I don't know what my favorite movie is. Sometimes I'm really upset, that I don't have an answer to this question (and all the other questions everyone else seems to have an answer to).
Day 146 of 365
Visualize a word chosen randomly from a dictionary. I found the word "maccabeus" and thought "Ah, it's the beetle!" As it turned out I confused "maccabeus" with "scarabeus". So here is a scarabeus - an old Egyptian symbol for reincarnation and resurrection. (Judas Maccabeus was a priest who led the revolt against the Seleucid Empire in Israel in the second century BC...says this really useful thing called internet)
Day 145 of 365
Make something incongruous. Use an unexpected material to make something familiar. This is a feather out of chopsticks. And another quote from Max Porter's "Grief is the Thing with Feathers": "Grief felt fourth-dimensional, abstract, faintly familiar. I was cold."
Day 144 of 365
Use your hands as your feed for what you do today. Clenching one's fist and some baby steps...I can relate this to the grieving process.
Day 143 of 365
Inspired by taste. A few weeks ago, one of my hospice volunteer colleagues and I were discussing the most favourite meal of the guests (patients): Nothing fancy, just bread with bacon and eggs.
Day 142 of 365
Cut a hole in the pages of a magazine so that what you reveal beneath creates something new. Sometimes there is this inner voice asking questions: Who are you? Where are you going to? What will be? And its favourite question is WHY?
Day 141 of 365
Make a pop up. Today: dancing on this thin line between madness and sanity... 🌈
Day 140 of 365
Create a rebus. This is a Tracy Chapman Song... "I'll see the black eyed cavalcade, lights on in the morn
I'll run fast and far away, I'll run without stopping
Till heart and feet fail or until I can stand
Be and be not afraid
Be and be not afraid
Be and be not afraid to reach for heaven"
Day 139 of 365
Make something that will decay over time. Memento Mori Apple.
Day 138 of 365
Make something inspired by a fictional character. So maybe he is not a fully fictional character, but anyway, here is something inspired by Mitch Albom's "Tuesdays with Morrie".
Day 137 of 365
Something inspired by the mourning sky. It's a colourful grey...
Day 136 of 365
Create a life-size person using your clothes. We all know, most people die in their beds...
Day 135 of 365
Make a rubbing by placing paper over rough objects and use charcoal to pick up the details. This is the imprint of the bathroom floor, where I sometimes sit and wonder what I'm doing in this crazy life. Did you notice that it looks like fingerprints?
Day 134 of 365
Reinterpret your favorite childhood story. I loved that at the end of every adventure, Petzi and his friends came home and had a pancake banquet. I like the thought of having some comfort food when the going gets tough...this was yesterday's dinner. 😌
Day 133 of 365
Make something surrealistic. The Valley of Tears.
Day 132 of 365
Make something on your shirt and wear it today. If someone wants to talk to me, here is the first sentence of my answer. 🤗❤
Day 131 of 365
Make a word out of objects in your environment. HEAVEN. People often ask me: Do you think dead people go to heaven? Do you think there is something like "heaven"? My answer is: I don't know! But if you need an honest answer, I'd say: I hope there is "heaven". Because I like the thought of a place to go to after death where it is nice weather and where it is quite and peaceful, maybe sometimes some dancing... Because why should I think that there is nothing or blackness or so, when I can imagine something nice? And I really hope that it is "low-threshold" to enter, so you don't need any membership card from a specific church or group etc. to get into! 😇
Day 130 of 365
Pick a piece of music. I picked four of my favorite pieces of music - they are linked to different times of grief.
Day 129 of 365
Currency for a fantasy country. In the Land of Grief the currency is basically made of good thoughts, thoughtful words and helpful hands.
Day 128 of 365
Write a ten word autobiography. "I am a grief magnet - that is fine by me."
Day 127 of 365
Mail art. Make or remake a postcard. I got this postcard from a friend it says in German: "I didn't opt for this life. I just got into it." - But yeah... There is some gratitude for that...
Day 126 of 365
Something flying. This is a little butterfly. My cousin would have been 18 years old this year. He was stillborn and after all this years I still can't grasp it.
Day 125 of 365
Work with triangles. This is me in a nutshell. And no, this is not me going from one extreme to another. It's more like knowing the ins and outs of both sides of this triangle and also acknowlegding that the basis of my emotions is on a spectrum between these two poles...
Day 124 of 365
Make something that seems to go through a solid wall. What does it feel like to be dead? "I don't know. But it feels warm on the other side!"
Day 123 of 365
Be inspired by an egg shell. "Moving on, as a concept, is for stupid people, because any sensible person knows grief is a long-term project." - I highly recommend everyone to read Max Porter's book "Grief is the Thing with Feathers". Not only, because it is such a great fable about grieving, but for me it was also the starting point of an unexpected in-depth conversation with a librarian in London.
Day 122 of 365
Make a working musical instrument. This is a ticking clock (turn on the sound) - transforming into a heart beat at the end. See the video here.
Day 121 of 365
Use tin foil. This is a tin foil rock. Yesterday I learned about a good metaphor for grief: grief is like a rock - it takes ages to remove that rock, and after many years it is still there and visible.
Day 120 of 365
Day 119 of 365
Create an animal. May I present you the rant-ant. Very furious and upset with life, people, herself, the situation, the system, the universe... This ant is armed with a baseball bat and a cannon, but mostly with an exceptionally large curse word vocabulary.
Day 118 of 365
Work with wood. What if I actually LIKE to dance alone? [acrylic on wood piece].
Day 117 of 365
Go out of your way and travel to a place you normally would not go. I didn't have to "travel" long distance: I usually don't go to the garden (I live in a rental flat and the garden is for everyone, so I there is the choice between garden and privacy, and I always choose privacy 🤗😁). But I remember my grandparents' garden: each of as grandchildren had her/his own row of pea vines - and we loved to plant and harvest the peas! 😍🌱
Day 116 of 365
Use a map. Is it only me who never finds the graves of the ancestors when back at home?! Here is a map of the (made up) cemetery in my hometown...and: apparently there is an app (of course there is an app) which is called "find a grave" to help you find everyone.
Day 115 of 365
Work with a kit of some sort. This is a kit from a Kinder egg. And because it's about a little lion, I thought about THE most devastating death in movie history... For many, it's the death of Simba's father... For me, it's more embarrassing: it was the death of the main character's best friend in "The Far Pavilions" - I cried so hard!
Day 114 of 365
Make something with bread. I made a sailing ship bread in memoriam my father's best friend who died a few month ago. Today I got a letter from bis family and I realised again: I miss him - not only for my sake, but for the sake of his family and especially my dad. I can't imagine living without one of my best friends...
Day 113 of 365
Red on red. Current state of mind. And contrary to what you might think it is: It's red tea in the shot glass.
Day 112 of 365
Work with paint swatch samples. I worked with 50 shades of grey. Haha. But really: this got me the inspiration for today. Lets talk about sex, baby. More precisely: Sex and death. In French an orgasm is often referred to as "the little death". A few years ago I attended a talk about "Death and Sexuality" at the "transmortale" conference in Kassel/Germany and I was delighted, that there are (female!) scientists out there who research the still tabooed topics around death. Besides, how often do we talk about death and grief in connection with sex in everyday life? Probably not THAT often...🤔😎
Day 111 of 365
Facial expression from the leftovers of a meal. This is a speechless broken crisps face. Today was one of these days: One minute my co-worker and I were laughing about silly things, the next minute she got a phone call that her dad was diagnosed with cancer. So "speechless" was the facial expression of the day today...
Day 110 of 365
Spill something. I spilled Chinese Writing Ink on a piece of paper and then let it run. Sad face done. 🤗
Day 109 of 365
Work with dirt. I was in the train the whole day, so this is a quick one for today. The last days, I visited friends and family and I think not only my actual luggage was fully packed, but also my emotional suitcase is now full of old stories, and new stories, memories, feelings, good thoughts and sad thoughts...and I now need some time to unpack. What is old and can stay in the past? What influences my way of life until today? How can (and should) I integrate all this in my current activities and plans?...
Day 108 of 365
...In the fogged bathroom mirror. I think this is really helpful to say to someone grieving, when you don't know what to say and aren't sure whether you should get in touch with them (a familiar feeling to me): "I want to give you space and privacy, but I am also worried about you, and I want to check in with you."
Day 107 of 365
Have a ball, make a ball or make something with a ball. How lonely can one be? [post it on kohlrabi] (inspired by @morekompensationforthisnation and "Cast Away" 🤗)
Day 106 of 365
Buy something at a thrift store and work with it. I bought this and the rest of the jeans at a thrift store when I was about 15 years old. And I loved these trousers, because they were tattered at the legs and everyone said: You can't wear a tattered jeans to this occasion or that event! And I felt quite rebellious to wear it anyway. 😌😎 I miss that jeans. 😢😊
Day 105 of 365
Optical illusions. My grandpa loved to tell jokes and was fun to talk to. When we were small children, my brother told him "Grandpa, you are fat!" and he said: "You may think it is fat, but that is an optical Illusion: I just have lots of muscles there!"
Day 104 of 365
Work as if you were a young child or baby. Today I met Jonas, he is 1 year old and we played with candy wrapper: Jonas enjoyed to jumble it up, crinkle it and throw it off the table...again and again. 😌😁 I was very fascinated about his endurance and determination... And I thought about how this might be also a metaphor for grief: jumble yourself up, crinkle in pain, falling and getting up again and again...?!
Day 103 of 365
Make something out of a napkin. What's in the numbers?! I went to a restaurant with my family today and we all (and the staff) still remember what my grandparents used to eat (my grandfather died over 10 years ago!): No. 306 is sweet and sour chicken and 311 is coalfish in tomato sauce. Bon appetit!
Day 102 of 365
Day 101 of 365
Open a book on a random page and get inspired. I read an article about feminists reclaiming the colour Pink... And I thought about my attempt to protest against the pressure to wear black at funerals and to reclaim my freedom to wear what I want and with what I feel most comfortable. These are some fancy designs for funeral outfits...Subtext: wear whatever you want to wear. Don't ask for permission. BUT: Make sure whatever you wear has pockets!
Day 100 of 365
Make something out of an old t-shirt and take a picture wearing it. Soooo...we have to talk about grieving and society's constant pressure upon people to self-optimize and to be strong, to move forward, to take the next step...or at the very least to find comfort in calender mottos... This t-shirt is my offer of talks!
Day 99 of 365
Inspired by insects. My ideas for today were full of pictures with insects scuttling out of human bodies... But I decided to take it easy. You're welcome!
Day 98 of 365
Work with time. So in this video there is my day in 1 min. (Side note: I never took so many pictures of myself in one day. 😱🙈) I tried to capture the facial expression and emotion I actually had and felt at that moment - and not smiling or grimacing in front of the camera. What I learned about my emotions today was: my spirit went up and down, most of the day I was really tired and didn't feel very well (that sneezing,... 🙄😕😷), smiling was exhausting, and taking pictures of myself without the chance to delete them is REALLY not part of my comfort zone. 😬😱😌
Day 97 of 365
An invitation to an every day event: this is the favorite cartoon of a dear friend of mine, so I thought it might be a good idea to celebrate my random survival of another monday with this still life - you are all invited to do the same (in your own way with whatever food or drinks or persons you prefer)! 🎉 🎉 🎉
Day 96 of 365
Work backwards. Working in front of a mirror, painting by looking into the mirror. I call this "Conversations with dead flowers": I really tried my best to keep you alive! Was there anything I could have done to save you? Is it my fault that you died? I didn't know how to cure you! Nothing helped! I tried everything! But in the end it was too late...I could only watch you die: first you lost all your colour, you turned so pale! Then you became grey and cold...
Day 95 of 365
Ask a stranger what to do today. Soooo... I don't like to talk to strangers... BUT: Strangers really like to talk to me. And on weekends I usually try to avoid that. BUT: I found a test on this really useful thing called internet. The test said "What should I paint today?" and the answer was: Black and Abstract. Please have a look at the upper left corner. I did this for a dare: leaving a space on the painting without colour! 😱😬😨💀👻
Day 94 of 365
The colour orange.
- "We just wish you could be like you were before...?!"
- "How could I???" 😓
Day 197 of 365
197 of my 365 days project (make something inspired by a mouth) and Day 16 of #creativesprint (Do something backwards). Ladies and gentleman, this is my attempt of artful vomiting, which was the first thing that came to my mind regarding the two prompts. [collage with glitter]
Day 198 of 365
198 of my 365 days project (diagram a new dance step) and Day 17 of #creativesprint (camouflage something): I hid Polka steps in Polka dots. My grandma loved this kind of music - and in case you're wondering about the steps: This is how my grandma "danced" the Polka. She just sit in her chair and tapped her feet to the right and to the left.
Day 199 of 365
199 of my 365 days project (make a flag) and Day 18 of #creativesprint (learn a new word): "Eros-Thanatos-Motif" = when in literature or in other forms of art, beauty and death appear together. I am at a music festival without a lot of supplies, so something easy for today.
Day 200 of 365
200 of my 365 days project (work with hair) and Day 19 of #creativesprint (make something while you are in a public place and leave it there for others to find). Crazy combo today... I left a little bouquet on my plate.
Day 201 of 365
201 of my 365 days project (build and use eyeglasses) and Day 20 of #creativesprint (create an amazing new hairstyle). I dedicate my hairstyle to my grandma, who said "Your hair is a mess and you look like a witch!" instead of "I love you.". The last years of her life this conversation became our little "code".
Day 202 of 365
202 of my 365 days project (make something new look old) and Day 21 of #creativesprint (create an illusion of a window): The Royal Mounds in Gamla/Sweden (still on my list of the cemeteries I want to see) on IKEA box.